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Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
11:57 pm
Hi ! My name is Gabriel. I'm 17--soon to be 18--and from Mississippi. The most HORRIBLE place to live when you're a transgendered.

I am FTM,pre-operation and hormones. I've got Asperger's Syndrome along with Bipolar Disorder and Social Phobia with panic attacks.

Nice to meet ya! =D
Thursday, January 31st, 2008
9:33 am
Petition the British Government to recognise *all* gender identities.
On January 15th I did a post on Genderqueer mentioning how I'd created a petition on the No.10 website, -So that all the British genderqueers and their allies can lobby their government to legally recognise the fact that *not everybody* fits perfectly into the currently available gender categories of male and female.

I've just recieved an e-mail from the number 10 petition team It said that my petition has been approved by the Number 10 web team, and is now available on the Number 10 website at the following address:


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Sunday, December 16th, 2007
4:35 pm
 I didn't even know this existed!  I'm a MTF aspie and I always wondered if there was a correlation between the two.

Anyhow, nice to be here. :)

Monday, November 19th, 2007
7:09 pm
National Transgender Day of Remembrance 2007 List of the Dead
I apologize to those who have complained about my lack of lj-cut's. Occasionally, I feel the abuse to ya'll's friends pages warranted. This is one of those times. Other times, I'm just a rude idiot. This is not one of those times. Please forgive me.

Many or most of you probably already know this, but tomorrow, November
20, is the National (in the U.S.) Transgender Day of Remembrance, a day
chosen in remembrance of a transwoman who was killed (Rita Hester) in
order for us all to remember those throughout the year who have been
killed or died because of their gender identity or presentation.

Every year, I post the list of that year's dead, that their names might
be known, where possible, and they might be remembered, even if for
just one day. The Greco-Romans believed that immortality was to be found
in the memory of those still living and this was why they considered a
braggart nature a heroic virtue. Let us thus remember these victims,
who have historically suffered great mutilations in the course of their
murder, as if their killers were trying to erase them from the
photograph of existence.

All the victims from all years past may be found on

After the list of the dead follows the details of the San Jose Day of
Remembbrance which I will be attending. If you live in the area of
Silicon Valley, please come. If not, I beg of you to find out where and
when the nearest remembrance is. Many of the dead were alone when they
died, and many believed they would always be alone even while they
lived. Let not their loneliness continue into the chill after death. Let
them be warmed by the fire of our tears, our thoughts, and our prayers.

Whichever of the alphabet soup you are (LGBTQQIA -- Lesbian, Gay,
Bisexual, Transgender, Questioning, Queer, Intersex, or Ally -- the last
meaning "we invite straight, cisgendered (non-trans) folk too"), please do
this for them.

Lacking a specific formula as yet, I merely call upon the mup gods to
look, read, and remember:
Hermaphroditus, look at the names of the dead.
Ardhanarisvara, read the names of the dead.
Melek Ta'us, remember the names of the dead.
Eris, look at the names of the dead.
Antinous, read the names of the dead.
Hoor-paar-kraat, remember the names of the dead.
Tlazolteotl, look at the names of the dead.
Azathoth, look at the names of the dead.
Pomba-Gira, read the names of the dead.
Inanna, remember the names of the dead.

List of murdered trans people from Nov. 2006 to Nov. 2007.
For more info see:

www.rememberingourd ead.org/day
============ ========= ========= ========= ==
Nakia Ladelle Baker
Location: Nashville, Tennessee
Age: 31 yrs. old
Cause of Death: trauma to the head
Date of Death: January 7, 2007

Hasan Sabeh
Location: Baghdad, Iraq
Age: 34 yrs. old
Cause of death: Stripped and shot dead by an Islamist death squad
Date of death: January 11, 2007

Keittirat Longnawa
Location: Rassada, Thailand
Age: ?
Cause of Death: Beaten by 9 Youths and then they slit her throat
Date of Death: January 31, 2007

Tatiana (Aldomiro Gomes)
Location: Trani, Italy
Age: 57
Cause of Death: Her skull was bashed in, in the middle of the street
Her head was slammed in a car door.
Date of Death: February 18, 2007

Moira Donaire
Location: Viña del Mar, Chile
Age: 30 yrs. Old
Cause of Death: Stabbed 5 times by a street vendor
Date of Death: March 5, 2007

Michelle Carrasco "Chela"
Location: Santiago, Chile
Age: 54 Yrs. Old
Cause of Death: She was found in a pit with her face completely
Date of Death: March 16, 2007

Ruby Rodriguez
Location: San Francisco, California
Age: 27 Yrs. Old
Cause of Death: She had been strangled and was found naked in the
Date of Death: March 16, 2007

Erica Keel
Location: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Age: 21 Yrs. Old
Cause of Death: A car repeatedly struck her
Date of Death: March 23, 2007

Bret T. Turner
Location: Madison, Wisconsin
Age: 48 Yrs. Old
Cause of Death: Multiple stab wounds
Date of Death: April 2, 2007

Manuela Di Cesare
Location: Pescara, Italy
Age: 37
Cause of Death: Head smashed by unknown object.
Date of Death: April 21, 2007

Unidentified Male Clad in Female Attire
Location: Kingston, Jamaica
Age: ?
Cause of Death: Gunshot wounds to the chest and lower back
Date of Death: July 7, 2007

Victoria Arellano
Location: San Pedro, California
Age: ?
Cause of Death: She was denied necessary medications to treat
HIV-related side effects.
Date of Death: July 20, 2007

Oscar Mosqueda
Location: Daytona Beach, Florida
Age: ?
Cause of Death: Shot to death
Date of Death: July 29, 2007

Stefania (no found second name)
Location: Roma, Italy
Age: 35
Cause of Death: Violently beaten with skull bashed in.
Date of Death: August 1, 2007

Maribelle Reyes
Location: Houston, Texas
Age: ?
Cause of Death: AIDS; Reyes was turned away from several treatment
centers due to her transgender status.
Date of Death: August 30, 2007

Tuesday, November 20, 2007


The DeFrank Center Ballroom
938 The Alameda San Jose CA

The evening will focus on highlighting the substantial progress made in
understanding and protecting transgender people.

Speaking at the event will be Aejaie Sellers, Executive Director of the
Billy DeFrank LGBT Community Center, Danielle Castro of
TransPowerment, Shelly Prevost, Director of the powerful film "Trained in the way of
men", Reverend Sky Anderson of the San Jose Metropolitan Community
Church and Sylvia Guerrero, The mother of Gwen Araujo.

The evening will conclude with a reading of names for those who lost
their lives due to hate crimes this past year.

For more details please go to: www.reelfreedom.com/DOR_info_2007.htm
Sunday, November 18th, 2007
2:57 am
I Was going to use a cut- then asked why here?-
Ok folks- we've got a few things in common to be here -or have a linkage that brings us here. Well- as do we all- I've got my personal issues.
And have been wondering how many of us share them or parts of them.

The Combination of Gender Issues and AS makes us oft in our own realms.
sounds oxymoronic at first but it's to a point. ARE there congruences we've overlooked for fears of sharing or assuming no one else ever....?


Any of us in the MTF zone wished we could?



Be pregnant and give birth.

Have rituals somehow entangling those above items...


Have fantasies of that ultimate narcissm embodied as having Our own child?

I suspect some of these are going to hit either:

Yeah-that's ME....


And a few "Tell me more.."

This place has been dead so whilst NOT comment whoring in the deceit to do so sense I honestly am damned curious if we've got others who have my issues or are willing to post some of theirs.
Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
10:50 pm
hi, saying hello
I'm a 22 mtf lesbian t-girl in perth WA.
I have diagnosed aspergers at 15 and have had numerous problems with my issues since, loving being a girl (best thing i ever did) but still never quiet fitting in anywhere, and always socially awkward.
Obbessed with computers and pop-culture.
Hehe, i even used to stim when i was a teenage. i have grown out of alot of things.
Anyway i thought i would stick my neck out and say hi!

l8r, Sammie :)
Monday, October 8th, 2007
9:23 am
LGBTQ Youth Wanted
If you identify as Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual or Transgender and are between age 14-24 you may be eligible to participate in a confidential online survey exploring the lives of LGBT youth.

Survey participants will be entered into a drawing for a prize!

To participate click here: www.surveywriter.net/in/survey/survey1019/qi.asp

For further information please contact the Project Director @ 773.935.3151 x 280 or amys@howardbrown.org
Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
10:15 am
Bullied in School: Dropping Out is a Very Bad Idea
I am a 47 year old high school graduate and a
few years ago at a LGBT center I told my last counselor
that I was bullied and harassed in high school, she
gasped and asked "Why didn't you just drop out of school?"
I just sat in my chair thinking "What the f___k?!"
This was one of the most stupid things I have ever heard,
and I heard many stupid things. Some people do drop out
of school because of being bullied and harassed but it
doesn't mean it's a good idea. In this day and age there are
better options, noone has to choose between an education and
safety from bullying and harassment.

Here is an article from about.com regarding the issue:


Current Mood: pissed off
Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
4:16 am
I'm a grandpa!!
I'm a grandpa, have been now for a whole week!
Joshua David was born 24 July at 9.47pm (9 pounds 12 1/2 oz- a big boy!).
Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

He and Bek (my daughter, his Mum) are staying with me out at "Djapana" at the moment, which is wonderful for me! As I'm a night owl and Bek isn't, I'm doing the 'nightshift' with feeds etc, he's a very good baby, so it's usually fairly easy to work out what he needs, and he doesn't complain unless there is something he needs (food, wet nappy, wind). Of course I might be biased but I think he's adorable.
Pop Simon

(cross posted a bit)

Current Mood: happy
Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
12:38 am
What i did for Autistic Pride Day:
There is Furry under the link. If that bugs you, tough terrapins.
Saturday, June 16th, 2007
10:34 am
Autistic Pride
Happy Autistic Pride, early.

Autistic Pride Day

Autistic Pride Day

Symbol of Autistic Pride DayAutistic Pride Day is celebrated on June 18 each year. [1] It is a day of celebration of the 'neurodiversity' of people on the Autistic spectrum.

Many families around the world celebrate in a simple way, but there are also numerous public events. There are also gatherings of autistics via IRC [2] so that many can communicate together in real time via their computers.

Autistic Pride day is an initiative by Aspies For Freedom. This autism rights group aims to educate the general public with such initiatives to end ignorance of the issues involved within the autistic community.

The day has captured public interest as it is a novel idea to some members of the public whose previous perception of autism was one of innate suffering and helplessness. The fact that is it a condition that has positive aspects that can be celebrated has been well accepted by the scientific community in general, particularly researchers such as Professor Simon Baron-Cohen. New Scientist magazine released an article entitled Autistic and proud on the first ever Autistic Pride Day that discussed the idea.[3]

The main event of 2005 was in Brasília, capital of Brazil. The main events of 2006 are an Autistic Pride Summer Camp in Germany, and an event at Scienceworks in Melbourne, Australia. An event is also planned in central park NYC, USA.

Philosophy of advocates of Autistic Pride Day
Advocates of autistic pride reject the notion that there is an ideal, and thus desirable, structure to the human brain. This notion leads many practitioners of psychiatry to assume that any deviation requires a "cure" to achieve conformity to the 'neurotypical' norm. Some supporters believe a form of ethnic cleansing is being imposed by advocates of a cure for autism. All believe that, at a bare minimum, there should be greater consideration shown for members of the autistic community as unique individuals.

Advocates of autistic pride point out that homosexuality was once classified as a form of mental illness that could be treated medically with libido-reducing hormonal therapy. Only after political agitation from the gay rights movement did this classification become obsolete. One of the enduring expressions of this movement is gay pride. The Autistic Pride Day hopes to start the same process of education of this view and activism, with the goals of promoting the basic human rights of autistics and finding a valued home for their individual voice and talents in modern society.

Themes for Autistic Pride Day
2006 Celebrate Neurodiversity
2005 Acceptance not cure

Choice of the date
June 18 was picked as Autistic Pride Day because it was the birthday of Aspies For Freedom's youngest member.

See also
List of autism-related topics
Autistic community
Autistic culture
Autism rights movement
Ethical challenges to autism treatment

^ Autistic Licence. Retrieved on 31 December, 2005.
^ chatautism Autistic IRC Network

Current Mood: productive
Saturday, April 28th, 2007
10:15 am
Mel Marsh, Are You Worried About Imminent Danger Laws Being Compromised?
Mel Marsh,

Are you worried about imminent danger laws being
compromised in the wake of Virginia Tech?

Current Mood: worried
Thursday, February 8th, 2007
11:13 am
Greetings and Salutations
Greetings, everyone.

I was referred to this community by asimont.

About me:
I am 33, an on-off college student, female-bodied, in a relationship with a wonderful Aspie woman. I'm alternately dxed Aspergers, ADHD and a variety of other things. I'm a former dotcommer. I'm politically dead-center. I'm a sci-fi geek in the biggest way. I'm into medical errata, science, and anthropology.

I'm a high school dropout for reasons related to my Asperger's. I suspect my gender variance had some part to play, as well.

I'm a licensed Emergency Medical Technician, though not employed in it nor sure if I want to be. Dearest to my heart is the field of anatomic pathology, and I'm researching how to become a technician in this field. Additionally, I have a dream of eventually attending medical school and becoming an anatomic pathologist or medical school professor.

I moderate the blog Today's Malady which is very rarely updated anymore.

I'm Jewish, though secular. I have a postmodern/transhumanist take on my neurovariance as well as gender stuff. This is what keeps me sane.

I've recently decided to start being more honest about gender things.

I consider myself a "third gendered" person as opposed to FTM or MTF. I have always had the belief that I was both a boy and a girl, and have wrestled with the question of whether to live legally and socially as a man or woman. It is very difficult for me to know where Asperger's leaves off and gender dysphoria begins. I can't tell whether my mannerisms are male or Aspergian.

As a child, I had great difficulty telling the genders apart or even understanding the question of sexual preference. I had neurotic fears that people would guess I wasn't a girl, and ostracize me, so I refused to be seen outside in anything but a dress. I was ostracized by girls (who often tried to make me more feminine) and beaten up by alpha type boys. I knew that these feelings were "weird" though from a young age, and didn't talk about them.

To this day, I am more at home among men - typically "beta" as opposed to "alpha" men - and among geeky or androgynous women. I have even been affected occupationally by my variance because I am constantly called upon for behaviors which are acceptable in men but not in women. I am told to smile more, and modulate my voice more.

No matter how feminine I look, I don't act "feminine" even if I try to present as a polite, well-mannered member of society. I'm not a stereotypical tomboy, either. If I were male, I'd be a nerd/geek.

This has given me some issues also with dating, in the past, though my wonderful girlfriend now makes these matters irrelevant. I am attracted to both men and women, but I was not comfortable with dating as a heterosexual woman, nor was I accepted among lesbians. Again it is hard to know where Asperger's ends and gender begins.

For a long time, I worked only in male-dominated workplaces, but found I still experienced subtle discrimination by men because of being perceived as a woman. At least, however, they did not perceive that I was different from other women, and I got discriminated against just like all the OTHER women...

In female-dominated workplaces, it has been hard for me to cope because of the demands made upon my emotional perception and ability to express myself. To many neurotypical women, acting professional is perceived as cold, and being female yet succinct and brief in speech is perceived as being abrasive, curt and/or rude. This same speech however is accepted by women if the speaker is male. I have had better experience in workplaces that are gay/trans-friendly and mixed-gender, than I have had in either dominantly male or female environments.

Transitioning to male has appealed to me off and on, but the appeal has been off as much as on. Would I be trading a life as a bigendered woman for a life as a bigendered man?
Is the issue MY feelings about my gender, or my feelings about others' perception?
Would I now be opening myself up to being victimized as a "non-alpha" male?
Do I really want to live in the normative male role, rather than live presently as a queer female?
Would my lesbian, Aspie girlfriend still like me? I have found more of a home with her than with anyone. She is absolutely wonderful. I wish I were able to marry and take care of her.

As a queer female, I get a lot of maneuverability. I may not fit in with heterosexual women, but they never threaten me with violence. I am better off with queer-friendly heterosexuals because queer women don't accept me either.

Because in our society, women can look pretty androgynous without facing scrutiny, it's easier for me to be female. It doesn't mean that I find any less painful the problems I DO encounter with cisgendered, heterosexual, neurotypical people.

Women are given more freedom to be androgynous, whereas men are not. I am not into typical "guy" things (not into sports at all; really into science and science fiction), but as a woman, it's not held against me.

I would be trading a life as a bigendered woman for a life as a bigendered man. Remaining in this form offers me more social maneuverability since androgynous women are virtually invisible, but run into issues where people still expect me to be "a normal woman" on very subtle levels.

I don't present as butch - I love antique clothes and velvety fabrics, and used to be a goth. I had my own interpretation of the look, with brocade vests, high-collared shirts, velvet pants, long coats; I found that goths accepted a wide degree of gender presentation.
Most often, though, I dress "office casual" in slacks and a button-down shirt or sweater. I can't wear men's clothes because the fit is too poor.

As far as my male archetype, I identify more with a Victorian-era male eccentric than with anything in the modern day.

Perhaps all that I say is a lot of rubbish, and rather verbose for an introduction.

It is nice to meet all of you.

-- Kai of the kaja Iru
(my real name known to a few on here)
Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
8:50 am
8:30 am
Asbergers treatment?
Hi, I'm 37, mtf, living full time..  I'm socially awkward, always feel like i don't fit in anywhere.. never been dianosed with asbergers but meet a lot of the criteria. 

So my question is what do they do to treat people with asbergers?  Padded cell? Lobotomy??  Is there anything they can do at all or do we learn to live with it? 

thanks so much.
Sunday, December 10th, 2006
4:08 pm
What music is in your head?
I'm curious.
I typically have something by Tchaikovsky constantly playing in my head when not listening to other music.
It's clear as a bell, but internal audio. I never hallucinate, I just can run through it at any point.
Do you ever have songs playing in your head?
How clearly?
How often?
What are they?
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